updates

okay,hari ni special sikit,ak nak update dlm bahasa melayu

entah,kebelakangan ini sukak sangat pakai bhs melayu

tak tau la apa yg buat aku nak sangat pakaikannya

mungkin sebab aku campur ngan member member tekken aku

ketagih doh,tak tekken macam semut gigit seluruh badan

cis cis

haa,baur jer ak dengar kawan aku makan mcd utk 5 hari berterusan

aku ingat dia giler ke haper,aku msuk mcd utk 2 hari pun nak jerit mintak tolong lepaskan aku

mana lak tau ada orang lagi gila

ha nama dia daphne

tak pernah jumpa dia kot,kenal kat fb sebab terlalu boring.

amenda ak leh buat selain drpd fb

suka ati ak click jer "like" button

wahahahha

ahh ak rasa itu jer kot,

daphne nih,sifu ak,sifu mcd kononnya lol

Nocturnal

just came back yumcha with dennis

4 in the morning lol

i couldnt sleep at all ,it seems like i'm going nocturnal soon

night seems to be the better time everyday

probably ...it's quiet during the night,where everybody seems to be sleeping and it's like i'm in a world of my own. (acting sophisticated and all LOL)

been a big spender lately,food,entertainment and all....i felt bad hahaha

and im still wondering how to get rm200-300 just for books like what i've planned with stella and vivian that a day trip to KL just to get books.

sigh,money

just yesterday,hanging out with my coursemate celebratin duck duck's bday

yeah,we had our dinner at richie montana(korean bbq) altho she's not there but still we had our good time eating and stuff...

her car broke down in Taiping and she manage to join us for K session

Great night great night,and there are also people who's surprise i could sing chinese song(i'm a well known banana in my school) lol

will be uploading pictures in fb soon...

there's still a lil piece of fragment that tells me that i'm actually waiting for the impossible,stuck in time

Untitled

back at blogging..

finally something to blog about

or.. perhaps i don't know how to put it in text

so what's up?

2009 pass so fast..like a blink of an eye

just the other day when i was walking around jj i saw mooncakes booth set up at the supermarket

and i was like WTF i thought i had mooncake not long ago!

well i guess time do fly by that fast..

talking about my work,yeah i'm a forum leader/moderator for http://www.joomcool.com/forums

how long has it been?

it's almost 8 months..and still going

i guess...we've been growing rapidly,altho you cant compare us to the long time established forum..but hey we're growing and it's fast.

we've got some exclusive stuff and most of all we got free entry to milkshake at Euphoria MOS

great news for clubbers

i'd been active on cg lately,much to concept art..AGAIN

looking back at my old work,i think i got a massive improvement..yeah at least i would think so

have you ever thought about..when you're good at something,but you can never be good

confuse?

is it no confidence or is it just my pure skill.....

i still think my work really sucks..looking at the cgsociety portfolio made me even more demoralized. sigh ,i really wanted to do freelance even for novel illustration..anyone? haha

so talking about CG,i've met this guy in forum

damienwu..or..aaron

i dont know which name he goes by..but he's another CG freak like me

draw draw draw and draw

i guess...i'm happy in a way that i found someone who shares the same interest..

not forgetting simon whom i used to hang out with..but..he moved to kl..so i'm here struggling to get my work improved..

but nevertheless, Damien/aaron here got a good sense of human figures

shifting from anime style to a more realism and alil bit of renaissance style painting

he's good and i had to admit.

altho he's a quiet guy...but he understood what i wanted to say..regarding bout CG and stuff

i guess..there's not much that would talk about design and CG with me

i remember i talked about this stuff to dennis before..but he couldnt get it..and i end up talking to the wall,disappointed i might be....but how could a lawyer-to-be could possibly understand what i'm talking about.

it's like you're talking about cooking with a construction worker.

so i met damien and his student winnie and had some art jam together

ya know..talking about cg..draw share some books and somehow we've gotten some attention while doing that too.

Apparently,there's an auntie who came to look at our drawing while pointing our work to her daughter "eh look ah girl,see very nice"

she's pointing at my gory work to her daughter.....nice you say?

i dont know..

wonder....

so.

helpless.

at.

this.

moment.

i wish i had more guts

Failure in digital arts

over the days i had try to pick up my tablet again

yes i've been abandoning my digital arts since i've to lurk and moderate in www.joomcool.com/forums

well it's almost like i've no time to draw

realizing that,i've tried to draw some art again and it suck so much

guess i'll just have to pick it up again

oh yeah

this is one of my works that i have to do in college

gave me a piece of poster of some anime girls and ask me to redraw and color it again

not really in my favour as i dont really draw anime/manga anymore

try to stick much to realism but heck

it's assignment

got no choice

i've had it and i've had it

some say i'm a time bomb

awaiting for the bad timing to let it all go in one shot

or perhaps i might just have a bad anger management

whatever it is

i'm tired

i'm really tired with all those shit that's going around me

i'm really tired why i'm such a push over where i couldnt even fight back for myself and just follow the flow.

i dont know if it's a good thing or not,but i've kept silence for so long.

i dont fucking care i take it myself and finally i exploded

i got blamed for every shit for that day

oh yeah i got fucked for not being understanding for being bad temper

look who's talking now

i took everything to myself and shut it all out,expressing myself in front of these damn monitor.

whom can i express it to?

the keyboards?

i'm tired,i'm really tired

i have to deal with princess attitude every fucking day and i can do nothing about it.

sometimes i wonder,do i even have the rights to talk anything in this family

i guess none

you guys are the wisest,smartest,and the most reliable one

so that leaves me have no rights to talk about anything at all

fine,i leave as it is i dont care and i'll just have to go on with my life.

i do what i'm doing and you guys do what you wanna do

does not concern me.So fuck it,sometimes i even wonder what the hell i'm doing for you guys

fuck it all up

i need a rest

Remember Remember

when's the last time you guys had ever went on a trip
i mean as in a bunch of god friends sharing the same room
it was 3 or 4 years ago if i'm not wrong
that i had went on a penang trip with a bunch of good ol friends
those who went to the trip im sure you all know what i'm talking about lol.
btw it's after SPM that we went for the trip

dont mind that jumping monkey,3 naked guys in my room,what else could you ask for but buttsecks
get your latest season of baywatch,naked guys edition
remember how kiddy we used to look?

remembering how do we look in the past 4 years

it reminds us how fast we had grown up

some went to work

some still studying

some went oversea

wondering when we will have a trip like this again

you guys miss those time?

i certainly do

On the other hand,

a new sem had started,new subject with some old subject retaining

what excites me is that there will be 3d class,website and also wacom

finally something that has nothing to do with paperwork or painting in watercolor

(remember the panda brand watercolor?)

guess alot of work will be coming in this 4 months

btw i had my first assignment,i'll have to design a shoe,yes using marker or fabric paint to make on

sounds cool but it doesnt once you cant seems to get the thing looks like what you had imagine

sigh she's graduating this month,and i had not done anything yet

08th March,Sunday 2008

Issit human's nature to betray each other?
is it so easy to betray a family bond cause of money?
So is my fucking mom's sis and her niece
hypocrites hypocrites and hypocrites.
i'm sick of this shit where people have to be so fake.
and still there's still people who'll believe them.
fooled you once and they'll fool you again.

where the fuck are they when you're in deepshit situation where you have to lose so much.
not even once they came to visit my mom.
NOT EVEN ONCE
and i'm glad you fucking failed in your business and break with your bf
that showed me how fake you fuckers are.
How much you guys had betrayed my mom backstabbing my mom trying to ruin her business
and you think nobody knows about it.
please go and fuck with yourself,i'll never forget what you'd done to my family.
Now you came to my house showing that fuck up face trying to tell the whole world you guys are innocent?
FUCK OFF!
you'd never failed to play shit between our family now i'm glad you did.
you played shit that provoked me and now you're gonna get it.
try and harm my family again and i'll guarantee this to you.
Even if it takes me to spoil my record i'll FUCKING KILL YOU LITTLE SHIT.

3rd March,2009

for the past 2 months
i had been very very lazy
lazy with blogging
lazy to update
call me a lazy bum if you will.

life's been great so far
and im gaining weight or i suppose you can call that well-fed
i couldnt explain why but i did gained extra weight.
and extra height
i've been growing taller and huge,i guess i'm a little bit retard starting to grow at this age while most of my friend had reached they maximum height.
looking back how short i am when i'm still in highschool and getting all taller than you guys now.
wahahaha
lately have been busy with assignments
photography,ahah anyone wanna become my model?
and group works alot too,but thats a relieve cause i did the most of concept and storyboard work of course with the help from my group mates

some of my photographs
unedited,yet to be edited



still not so pro yet but hey
dont you think they got "feel" lol