wonder....

so.

helpless.

at.

this.

moment.

i wish i had more guts

Failure in digital arts

over the days i had try to pick up my tablet again

yes i've been abandoning my digital arts since i've to lurk and moderate in www.joomcool.com/forums

well it's almost like i've no time to draw

realizing that,i've tried to draw some art again and it suck so much

guess i'll just have to pick it up again

oh yeah

this is one of my works that i have to do in college

gave me a piece of poster of some anime girls and ask me to redraw and color it again

not really in my favour as i dont really draw anime/manga anymore

try to stick much to realism but heck

it's assignment

got no choice

i've had it and i've had it

some say i'm a time bomb

awaiting for the bad timing to let it all go in one shot

or perhaps i might just have a bad anger management

whatever it is

i'm tired

i'm really tired with all those shit that's going around me

i'm really tired why i'm such a push over where i couldnt even fight back for myself and just follow the flow.

i dont know if it's a good thing or not,but i've kept silence for so long.

i dont fucking care i take it myself and finally i exploded

i got blamed for every shit for that day

oh yeah i got fucked for not being understanding for being bad temper

look who's talking now

i took everything to myself and shut it all out,expressing myself in front of these damn monitor.

whom can i express it to?

the keyboards?

i'm tired,i'm really tired

i have to deal with princess attitude every fucking day and i can do nothing about it.

sometimes i wonder,do i even have the rights to talk anything in this family

i guess none

you guys are the wisest,smartest,and the most reliable one

so that leaves me have no rights to talk about anything at all

fine,i leave as it is i dont care and i'll just have to go on with my life.

i do what i'm doing and you guys do what you wanna do

does not concern me.So fuck it,sometimes i even wonder what the hell i'm doing for you guys

fuck it all up

i need a rest