updates

okay,hari ni special sikit,ak nak update dlm bahasa melayu

entah,kebelakangan ini sukak sangat pakai bhs melayu

tak tau la apa yg buat aku nak sangat pakaikannya

mungkin sebab aku campur ngan member member tekken aku

ketagih doh,tak tekken macam semut gigit seluruh badan

cis cis

haa,baur jer ak dengar kawan aku makan mcd utk 5 hari berterusan

aku ingat dia giler ke haper,aku msuk mcd utk 2 hari pun nak jerit mintak tolong lepaskan aku

mana lak tau ada orang lagi gila

ha nama dia daphne

tak pernah jumpa dia kot,kenal kat fb sebab terlalu boring.

amenda ak leh buat selain drpd fb

suka ati ak click jer "like" button

wahahahha

ahh ak rasa itu jer kot,

daphne nih,sifu ak,sifu mcd kononnya lol

Nocturnal

just came back yumcha with dennis

4 in the morning lol

i couldnt sleep at all ,it seems like i'm going nocturnal soon

night seems to be the better time everyday

probably ...it's quiet during the night,where everybody seems to be sleeping and it's like i'm in a world of my own. (acting sophisticated and all LOL)

been a big spender lately,food,entertainment and all....i felt bad hahaha

and im still wondering how to get rm200-300 just for books like what i've planned with stella and vivian that a day trip to KL just to get books.

sigh,money

just yesterday,hanging out with my coursemate celebratin duck duck's bday

yeah,we had our dinner at richie montana(korean bbq) altho she's not there but still we had our good time eating and stuff...

her car broke down in Taiping and she manage to join us for K session

Great night great night,and there are also people who's surprise i could sing chinese song(i'm a well known banana in my school) lol

will be uploading pictures in fb soon...

there's still a lil piece of fragment that tells me that i'm actually waiting for the impossible,stuck in time

Untitled

back at blogging..

finally something to blog about

or.. perhaps i don't know how to put it in text

so what's up?

2009 pass so fast..like a blink of an eye

just the other day when i was walking around jj i saw mooncakes booth set up at the supermarket

and i was like WTF i thought i had mooncake not long ago!

well i guess time do fly by that fast..

talking about my work,yeah i'm a forum leader/moderator for http://www.joomcool.com/forums

how long has it been?

it's almost 8 months..and still going

i guess...we've been growing rapidly,altho you cant compare us to the long time established forum..but hey we're growing and it's fast.

we've got some exclusive stuff and most of all we got free entry to milkshake at Euphoria MOS

great news for clubbers

i'd been active on cg lately,much to concept art..AGAIN

looking back at my old work,i think i got a massive improvement..yeah at least i would think so

have you ever thought about..when you're good at something,but you can never be good

confuse?

is it no confidence or is it just my pure skill.....

i still think my work really sucks..looking at the cgsociety portfolio made me even more demoralized. sigh ,i really wanted to do freelance even for novel illustration..anyone? haha

so talking about CG,i've met this guy in forum

damienwu..or..aaron

i dont know which name he goes by..but he's another CG freak like me

draw draw draw and draw

i guess...i'm happy in a way that i found someone who shares the same interest..

not forgetting simon whom i used to hang out with..but..he moved to kl..so i'm here struggling to get my work improved..

but nevertheless, Damien/aaron here got a good sense of human figures

shifting from anime style to a more realism and alil bit of renaissance style painting

he's good and i had to admit.

altho he's a quiet guy...but he understood what i wanted to say..regarding bout CG and stuff

i guess..there's not much that would talk about design and CG with me

i remember i talked about this stuff to dennis before..but he couldnt get it..and i end up talking to the wall,disappointed i might be....but how could a lawyer-to-be could possibly understand what i'm talking about.

it's like you're talking about cooking with a construction worker.

so i met damien and his student winnie and had some art jam together

ya know..talking about cg..draw share some books and somehow we've gotten some attention while doing that too.

Apparently,there's an auntie who came to look at our drawing while pointing our work to her daughter "eh look ah girl,see very nice"

she's pointing at my gory work to her daughter.....nice you say?

i dont know..

wonder....

so.

helpless.

at.

this.

moment.

i wish i had more guts

Failure in digital arts

over the days i had try to pick up my tablet again

yes i've been abandoning my digital arts since i've to lurk and moderate in www.joomcool.com/forums

well it's almost like i've no time to draw

realizing that,i've tried to draw some art again and it suck so much

guess i'll just have to pick it up again

oh yeah

this is one of my works that i have to do in college

gave me a piece of poster of some anime girls and ask me to redraw and color it again

not really in my favour as i dont really draw anime/manga anymore

try to stick much to realism but heck

it's assignment

got no choice

i've had it and i've had it

some say i'm a time bomb

awaiting for the bad timing to let it all go in one shot

or perhaps i might just have a bad anger management

whatever it is

i'm tired

i'm really tired with all those shit that's going around me

i'm really tired why i'm such a push over where i couldnt even fight back for myself and just follow the flow.

i dont know if it's a good thing or not,but i've kept silence for so long.

i dont fucking care i take it myself and finally i exploded

i got blamed for every shit for that day

oh yeah i got fucked for not being understanding for being bad temper

look who's talking now

i took everything to myself and shut it all out,expressing myself in front of these damn monitor.

whom can i express it to?

the keyboards?

i'm tired,i'm really tired

i have to deal with princess attitude every fucking day and i can do nothing about it.

sometimes i wonder,do i even have the rights to talk anything in this family

i guess none

you guys are the wisest,smartest,and the most reliable one

so that leaves me have no rights to talk about anything at all

fine,i leave as it is i dont care and i'll just have to go on with my life.

i do what i'm doing and you guys do what you wanna do

does not concern me.So fuck it,sometimes i even wonder what the hell i'm doing for you guys

fuck it all up

i need a rest

Remember Remember

when's the last time you guys had ever went on a trip
i mean as in a bunch of god friends sharing the same room
it was 3 or 4 years ago if i'm not wrong
that i had went on a penang trip with a bunch of good ol friends
those who went to the trip im sure you all know what i'm talking about lol.
btw it's after SPM that we went for the trip

dont mind that jumping monkey,3 naked guys in my room,what else could you ask for but buttsecks
get your latest season of baywatch,naked guys edition
remember how kiddy we used to look?

remembering how do we look in the past 4 years

it reminds us how fast we had grown up

some went to work

some still studying

some went oversea

wondering when we will have a trip like this again

you guys miss those time?

i certainly do

On the other hand,

a new sem had started,new subject with some old subject retaining

what excites me is that there will be 3d class,website and also wacom

finally something that has nothing to do with paperwork or painting in watercolor

(remember the panda brand watercolor?)

guess alot of work will be coming in this 4 months

btw i had my first assignment,i'll have to design a shoe,yes using marker or fabric paint to make on

sounds cool but it doesnt once you cant seems to get the thing looks like what you had imagine

sigh she's graduating this month,and i had not done anything yet

08th March,Sunday 2008

Issit human's nature to betray each other?
is it so easy to betray a family bond cause of money?
So is my fucking mom's sis and her niece
hypocrites hypocrites and hypocrites.
i'm sick of this shit where people have to be so fake.
and still there's still people who'll believe them.
fooled you once and they'll fool you again.

where the fuck are they when you're in deepshit situation where you have to lose so much.
not even once they came to visit my mom.
NOT EVEN ONCE
and i'm glad you fucking failed in your business and break with your bf
that showed me how fake you fuckers are.
How much you guys had betrayed my mom backstabbing my mom trying to ruin her business
and you think nobody knows about it.
please go and fuck with yourself,i'll never forget what you'd done to my family.
Now you came to my house showing that fuck up face trying to tell the whole world you guys are innocent?
FUCK OFF!
you'd never failed to play shit between our family now i'm glad you did.
you played shit that provoked me and now you're gonna get it.
try and harm my family again and i'll guarantee this to you.
Even if it takes me to spoil my record i'll FUCKING KILL YOU LITTLE SHIT.

3rd March,2009

for the past 2 months
i had been very very lazy
lazy with blogging
lazy to update
call me a lazy bum if you will.

life's been great so far
and im gaining weight or i suppose you can call that well-fed
i couldnt explain why but i did gained extra weight.
and extra height
i've been growing taller and huge,i guess i'm a little bit retard starting to grow at this age while most of my friend had reached they maximum height.
looking back how short i am when i'm still in highschool and getting all taller than you guys now.
wahahaha
lately have been busy with assignments
photography,ahah anyone wanna become my model?
and group works alot too,but thats a relieve cause i did the most of concept and storyboard work of course with the help from my group mates

some of my photographs
unedited,yet to be edited



still not so pro yet but hey
dont you think they got "feel" lol

31st,december 2008

3.33am
i couldnt sleep
puts me in thinking mode
thinking about,unnecessary stuff again.
probably that's what causing me to be abit emo tonight
i should be happy
i'm gonna party for nyeve
well not exactly a super duper great party bash tho
but,at least i'm doing something at this kinda day
*i do not want to spend my nyeve in infi and got humiliated by mango*
at least this year,i'm spending it on beach party
great isn't it?
i should be feeling happy
but no,for now i dont think i'm


oh btw...pls do visit us in
www.joomcool.com
we're a well establish webportal and forum
be sure to drop by for a visit
we cater from bloggers to clubbing kakis and as well as if you're looking for a chat or new friend
do come by and give us a visit.
lotsa features there ;)

19th December 2008

well,sigh
i've been abandoning my blog for some time now
i dont really know what to blog lately
i need some workout
i've been gaining weight lately..i'm serious and i know you guys were expecting it
LOL.
okay,talking about workout i need find a decent gym around ipoh
since Dennis is coming back ipoh and suggested we should go work out
well
what the heck,i need to get buffed
lol
and i felt like singing K now
i sucked at it pretty much but i enjoy it very much lol
well it's how i express myself much in the k-room
u can sing like shit and noone cares lol

on the other hand
i've been selling wacom for now
well,business' slow
gotta be patience
lol
xmas is coming,what did you guys planned?
well for me,i'd a BBQ gathering at my place...
thought of ordering a turkey but it's too expensive
250 for a medium turkey
no choice,gotta opt for something else
holidays
damn
am i boring or what
i need something to do before i start thinking nonsense
and i need to shop for new sneakers and shirts too
ahhh
so much to do yet so lazy to do
lol

out
-Ben-
happy holidays peoples

15th November 2008

almost a month since i've been updated my blog
well
1st of all
thanks for all those wishes i get on my bday

it's been a really great year for me
and everything's pretty well up till now
altho i didnt really celebrate or did i plan to celebrate this year
but some of you guys really gave me some suprise
well,altho i dont look suprised,but i'm really suprised
:D
thanks Dennis and Puikhe for the blog dedication
love u guys!
altho didnt really talk much or going out alot
but,what matter most need not to be showed
you guys are me close friend n that's that
;)
ok i sound abit..um..faggoty right now
forgive me for that i'm high on some hormones nowadays
oh lol
well i just went to kl few days earlier
it's a...crash trip actually
didnt really planned it out
so,cant really meet alot of me old friends
guess they're busy with assignments
did went to meet yaorong up and crash at his house playing tekken
thanks dude for the ride and hospitality
things i did in kl
well
you know
i'm a tekken freak and guess most of u guys who know me pretty well could guess what i did
oh lol
yes i went for tekken6 arcade
and it was..so....


nuff said
an arcade machine with sony HDTV and nice sound surround system
where could u possibly get this anywhere?
and oh boy
hw i wish there's tekken6 in ipoh
but that's gonna be utter bullshit cause it's never gonna come true
capcom station j00 sarks
well
tekken aside

i got myself a bday present
well it';s abit late and i bought it myself for myself
it's abit lame i know,but hey
i'm pretty much hype bout it when i got from the seller
oh how stupid i look smiling whole nite long looking at my newly bought bday present
oh here it is guys



the moment i got home
i take it out the box and start setting up
haha sounds abit uh..hype right?
and it looks so freaking cool
altho my sis n mom think it's quite..scary
but hell
i love that shit so much
LOL
anyway think i should really put an end to this post
guess it has gone abit too long
can get quite boring,i'm not some prolific blogger afterall
lol
ciao peeps

25th October,2008

should be time that i should update bout my blog
lack of update nowadays
hmm guess dont have anything to talk nowadays
wonder have you guys felt like that too
heh birthday coming soon
and i'm not hype about it
i wonder why
dennis asked me bout it,and i replied him
"geez,i dunno never really thought about it"
but...what's the point really,it's the same date again and again
birthdays,they seems so dull to me now
clubbing?
got sick of that
throwing a party somewhere?
just like normal outing
just that we have additional cakes for dessert
it's not like it's special in some sorta way
just a date,just a number
i dont know why,i felt like i'm starting to outcast myself from others
and i only chose few to be close to me
not more than 5
just a few
i dont know why
but i seems to lost hope towards people
for almost a year
for a year,seems like i change alot
i quitted going to cc
i stopped clubbing
i found myself a path
i met someone who gave me the direction
i stopped snooker

why?
just take it as a redemption for myself
i changed because of one solid reason
and that's that
but i guess it's too late for all that
i need to move on with my life
i wish i could

October 10th,2008

sigh i'm lazy with blogging nowadays
workload piling up deadline closing up
guess it's gonna be a busy week for me after the penang trip
to finish up tons of painting
and have to save some money for books and *sigh* graphic card
i got tagged by 2 frens of mine and had yet to do that
sorry mabel and pk
wish me luck guys
as i grow,i think i see things in more of a different way now
well at least from the design point of view
thanks to someone,really had to treat him for a freakin big ass meal if i ever get my 1st salary



why people always comparing to each and another.
well it's nothing wrong
but it's very wrong when it comes to designer
what's the point of comparing design?
i wonder,everyone got their own signature and way of working
compare too much and you'll be like them too
guess that takes the very essence of designer
you cant be yourself
but well of course when it comes to professionalism you cant run away from that
afterall designers are ,well of course professionals just like doctors and etc
yes i'm not bullshitting
it's kinda sad how the community takes designers as a whore nowadays
well,you cant expect super good treatment especially when the mindset of the ppl that doctors got good future while designers...well they're artist and the only thing they can do is paint
MISCONCEPTION
how i wish i could yell that malaysia
rants over
not like that happens to me anyway
lol

and i seriously need to start keeping fit now
my whole class ask me to slim down
JS sk me to slim down
Stella too
D also
and many more
guess i think i really should start keeping fit now
oh boy
i think i should
back to how i was like...2 years ago
sigh i miss me old look
tomolo i shall start my daily routine of jogging

and here the tags imma gonna do

The last person that tagged you is?
Mabelloi

Your relationship with him/her?
Friends,that i can talk with lol

Your two impressions towards him/her?
she's crazee about lengjai

The most memorable thing that he/her has done for you?
hmmm,i wonder....so far none i guess
crapping with her..does that count? lol

The most memorable words that he/she spoke to you?
you're not lengjai

If he/she becomes your enemy, you will..
life goes on..

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is..
Because something really really bad happened.hopefully not
else there's no one who can crap with me

The most desirable things to do for him is..
find someone who looks like raymond lam to be his bf =p

How do you think people around you feel about you?
useless piece of wood (canto)

The character of yourself is?
i like to show my happy face,having fun all the time
emo is not really my thing

On the contrary, the character that you hate yourself is..
i dont hate myself,i am what i am

The most ideal person you want to be is..
someone who understand me,but guess there's not much ppl who can understand me,only a few

For the people who care, say something about them.
you guys are the best,really.

Ten people to tag.
Wtf, why so many?

i] Dennis
ii] Stella Teoh
iii] Jessica (JS)
iv] Timmy
v] Simon
vi] Shenay,yes you no more prey for me to tag lol
vii)keijoe

guess that's it?

Who is number 2 having a relationship with?
she's single,guys

Is 6 a female or male?
Female.

If number 7 and 10 got together, would that be a good thing?
there's no.7,but there's no no.10


How about 5 and 8?
sodomee? eeew

What is number 1 studying?
la-la-la-lawyerr!!

Say something about number 3.
She's my simou rawr

Panic At the SG8

lame title
lol
today gonna do a triple posting tho
so hardworking aren't i?
back to 31st of august
ahh yes merdeka
nothing special
around noon went out to lunch with cymon and stella somewhere opposite sun yuen loong
it was nothing special really,normal hot day,blow some water
and aggronax called me out of a sudden
asking me wanna see lenglui or not
well i was like w00t,lenglui??
oh well,they came from kl and we known each other(not really) in forum
and decided for some meet up with our thread members
3 girls and 1 guy
JS(jessica),kikipi(kiki),Blackburry(vicky,AOD(christopher)
yumcha abit blow water abit,and actually planned some stuff for night activities
after lepak at oldtown for some time,we actually went to kek lok tong,for some sightseeing and some pictah time
lepak till 4 or 5 like that we went back
simon went to bring em for dinner after that which i did not join and later at frosty beer
i joined in later and had to drink a few cup lulz
and then move on to sincero riverbank,ordered a bottle of red wine
and dennis,timmy,karweng join in ,aggronax bought em a bucket of heineken lulz
(thanks bro)
feeling not so siok,aggro decided to go to SG8
lol,chinese song cum techno
feel damn great man lol
lepak till like 3 like that,again it's aggro's treat
>.<
he actually tumbang before 3 and went to his car and sleep
lol
went back home,i couldnt sleep tho lol
too semangat already,well 1st time been drinking so much since so long and i actually remain so sedar lol
and tomorrow morning i had to wake up for cameron trip
and took some pictah actually lol

Monday August 18th 2008,not so hot day

i couldnt help it but to post this up

August 5th 2008,HOT DAY

time to revive my thread oh lulz
been busy for few weeks working on stuff
so don't have the time to think bout what to write and stuff
well
here i am
finally getting the feel to blog
starting my 1st class in ERA today
it was great,and i got bunch of friendly coursemate despite of 1st day getting to know me
oh,they were all girls and one guy
that sums up there were 2 guys in the class
well
finally,i feel more like going to college now
which is a good thing
and i kinda got asked to intro myself in front of the class
and i got point blank at a moment lol
nice knowing them and,really the lecturers and bunch of fun peoples too.

okay college aside
here's another posting that i hope may enlighten people

there's been alot of people misunderstood what concept art is
well,i'm in this particular field and certainly,i hope i could clear up the mist covering you guys out there thinking about what concept art is
well,majority would think that concept art is freaking cool ass painting
more like a masterpiece as long as it is digitally painted
well
concept art is concept art
illustration is illustration
both differs from each other
concept art is more to the design rather than the beauty of the painting,a masterpiece or so to say
well,you cant take monalisa as a concept art do you?
concept art is more about the idea and less about the painting
talking about it,we're selling the ideas not the masterpiece


"Concept art is a subset of illustration.

What is illustration? Dictionary.com says this of the word “illustrate”:

1. to furnish (a book, magazine, etc.) with drawings, pictures, or other artwork intended for explanation, elucidation, or adornment
2. to make clear or intelligible, as by examples or analogies; exemplify
3. 3. Archaic. to enlighten
4. to clarify one's words, writings, etc., with examples: To prevent misunderstandings, let me illustrate.

So, an “illustration” is art that communicates something.

There is much of fine art that falls into the category of illustration. Any imagine that tells a story or represents an object is illustrative, whether it is communicating something as complex as a scene from the Lord of the Rings, or as simple a thing as “a horse” or “a man”.

What makes concept art different from illustration is that the audience isn’t the person who reads a book, plays a game, or watches a movie. The primary audience of concept art is other artists, and other people involved in the making of the final product. Concept art is the blueprint that is used to make more art. It is also used to communicate with the holder of the intellectual property rights involved in a project, and it can also be the leverage that is used to get funding for a project.

If you want a formal education that will prepare you for being a concept artist, then study illustration.

"


oh and btw,here's a practice of my perspective
take a guess how many vp(vanishing point) it has
just a rough sketch
not really finish yet,but at least i got the view i wanted lol

July 20th 2008,rainy

been busy settling my portfolio stuff and going to era soon
thanks dennis for sitting there for 2 hours just for my test
lol
and yesterday went to yum cha at suet far beh jau,frosty beer
omfg,taste so foamy lulz
and the cat sistahs(carrmen,isabell,stella) keep on ordering stuff like fried prawns
couldn't drink much end up bringing one bottle home
still in my fridge tho,gonna have it with my dad very soon
lulz

"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!"

Rocky Balboa

july 12,rainy 2008

since i've been tagged
i'm force to do a tag
oh well lulz
and i got tagged by isabell

RULES:List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now, shaping your Summer. Post these instructions in your blog along with your 7 songs.Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to.

Barry Manilow - cant smile without you

Barry Manilow - Mandy

Bowling for soup - almost

Bowling for soup - girl all the bad guys want

Hoobastank - The reason

Hoobastank - inside of you

Switchfoot - this is home




I tag:
mabel,dennis,timmy,cching,kokseng,sengfoo and puikhe
lulz

btw here is today's work

July 03,rainy 2008

should i go or should i not?
i do not have confidence
but....i got nothing to lose isn't it?
guess i should take the opportunity
the results aside
yeah,i should go
and yes i'm going to take that opportunity